These past few days have been crazzzyyy. (literally. lol get it)
My supervisor got punched in the face Friday by a patient. I didn't see it but I heard them call the code and I knew she was on ICU so I went over there and she was obviously in tremendous pain and surrounded by a lot of people. She had to go to the ER and get surgery. I found out today she doesn't know if she is even coming back to work or not. I guess you don't really think about how big of a deal this whole thing is until it happens. It's not only physical pain, but emotional pain. My supervisor is apparently going to start going to therapy about it. There are all these liability issues too. The day after this happened I was set to lead the ICU group and apparently my supervisor did not want me doing ICU. I did it anyways. The first group was fine but when I went on the other ICU unit two of them were just MAD and I couldn't even do group and I started getting emotional and had to leave. Every time I tried to get a response they'd just be yelling about something. Then when one of the guys started yelling and got up out of his chair I was like "NOPE" so I just got up and left and I'm not sure if I was thinking about the whole getting punched in the face thing or what but I just suddenly felt very overwhelmed and stressed out and had to leave and cry in the bathroom.
I've just been feeling overwhelmed and anxious since it all happened. I'm trying to take over for my supervisor and it's really stressful! We have some social workers helping us which is awesome but today we did not and I was there for almost 10 hours and literally did not stop moving that whole time except for lunch break.
Another crazy thing that happened... yesterday one of the patients died. I saw her coming through the door from outside in her wheelchair and she just fell out of her chair, right on her face. The ambulance came and I'm not sure if she died on the unit or in the ER or what but apparently they aren't exactly sure what caused it. Apparently things like this NEVER happen and it was 2 awful things within a few days!
Also since my supervisor isn't coming back for a while (or maybe not even at all) I got offered to work per diem. I just tell them when I could work and I don't get benefits and all that so I'd be getting paid really well. It's just such a hard decision because obviously I want to go home for the holidays and maybe she will be back by the time I get back?? And also there is nother intern coming in January so I have no idea how that is even going to work. If I did work per diem I'd seriously just have to get my own place. I don't like living with a roommate at all that I don't know and I just don't think I can handle it any longer. It was good for while I was here for my internship because it was cheap but I'd probably be able to afford my own apartment working per diem with full time hours, even here where everything is pretty expensive. I'd also want to get a cat.
Anyways I only have tomorrow, Friday, then next week and I'm DONEEEE. I seriously cannot WAIT. Especially after these past few days oh my gosshhhh. So much happens in a day in terms of emotions that it almost feels like a dream when I am leaving. It's such an emotional job I LOVE IT BECAUSE I LOVE EMOTIONS AND PSYCH but it's still super draining.
Anyways I'm also stressed out about end of my internship stuff. Obviously my supervisor can't really be here to guide me through it so I need to ask her about it all sometime.
I just need to make it through the rest of this week then next week and I'll be done with all of this.